Dance class

London pulled me down to her during dance class and whispered in my ear "I love you mom"

Headaches

London is really tough to be around sometimes. I find myself saying "I hope you have a daughter just like you someday!" She is very dramatic and cries frequently. Whether she is frustrated, stubbed her toe, or is fighting with one of her siblings. So at the end of the day (actually it doesn't really matter the time of day) I have had it with her extra noise. It is so draining. Because of this I think its been hard for me to really enjoy London. Luckily, for both of us, there are moments where I can see past the screaming and the whining and I can see her for the truly beautiful girl she is.
Tonight I was helping her get in her pajamas and I had a headache. It was a long day and I had a headache most of the day. It seemed as though the fighting and the screaming filled the majority of the day but it may just have been that I noticed it more today. So I had almost checked out for the day. Then London gave me a big hug and she looked at me right in the eyes and smoothed back my hair and said "you look like Rapunzel Mom". Which is definitely a compliment because that is her favorite princess. And looking at her reminded me of what an amazing relationship we can have and that I want her to be my best friend.
Which is an interesting concept because usually you are drawn to people first and you kind of get to choose who your best friends are. With your kids you don't choose who they are. So you really have to choose to be friends with them regardless of whether or not you mesh well.

Mommy Daughter Day

London and I had a nice girls day today. We went to the park, made bread, did puzzles, painted our nails, and finished it off by watching Tangled, London's favorite movie.  It was really nice to talk to London
and just focus on her and Coen.  London talks almost as much as sawyer does when hes not around.

Bedtime blues

One of the greatest challenges in our life right now is putting the kids to bed. We start around nine and usually the kids aren't asleep til eleven or later. And they aren't just playing or laying there. Currently London is crying and has been off and on for twenty minutes. Sawyer wants the night light, London doesnt. They always seem to find something to fight about. We are and have been for some time at the end of our rope. Not only is it physically draining and emotionally but it takes away our nights. By the time the kids are asleep. We are too angry and tired too do anything. It really is affecting the Spirit of our home and our relationships with each other. I am so angry at the kids for making it so difficult and that anger transfers to Joel and it just gets ugly. It's hard to remember that it's not their fault and they arent accountable yet. I am the adult here right? I set the rules. I control the situation. What are we doing wrong?

Sweet

London was so sweet today. She did everything I asked and said "okay Mom" and just smiled up at me. She skipped around most of the day singing to herself. I am so happy that I have a daughter. She is truly beautiful.

Happy Birthday London

We celebrated your 3rd Birthday with your friends today. We did a Witch theme this year. It was really cute. We had Zoey Bales, Casey Cavanaugh, and Ariana Sweat there to celebrate. Sawyer was quite disappointed that he couldn't come (we had it while he was at school). But I told him that I wanted it to be all about London and that when he was around he stole the show.

I was thinking about all that has happened with you over the past year. You have taught yourself the entire alphabet. You are so motivated to learn! One of your favorite things to do is find letters while we are out and about. You love to take your time doing things and being independent. But you also are a major diva. If you don't feel like doing something you will try your hardest to get out of it. We have butted heads a lot. We found out that your Dad is a softie. You have him right where you want him.
One of the hardest things with you this year was your whining and screaming. You have a scream that makes "fairies die in the forests" (something I told Sawyer and you to try and get the screaming to stop). The screaming and whining have gotten much better and I feel like our relationship is on the mend. There were many times where I wanted to hurl myself, or you for that matter, off the balcony to rid myself of that horrific sound. I found out what my pet peave is this past year. Whining and Screaming.

But on a happier note, your potty training went very smoothly. I was so proud at how fast you picked it up. You started taking dance classes and you are the clown of the class which is an accomplishment because you tend to be more quiet. (Maybe it's because Sawyer is so loud and that is your chance to be yourself) You learned how to say all the names in the family correctly. (Sawyer used to be London and Dad was Mom). And we learned how sweet you can be. You are a sweetheart. You are very sincere and very loving. You love to read books, play with your dolls, put together puzzles, and play with Sawyer. And those dimples are almost too cute. Almost. 

Dance Class

London is so cute during her dance class. She is very selective on what she chooses to do and she has finally decided that she wants to dance during dance class. Stubborn Girl. It is so much fun to watch her. The class is really for me not her.

Sometimes London will smile at me and say "I'm happy Mom" I really want that to be my focus every day especially while my kids are young--keep them happy and confident.